For all of you…
Before anything else, I urge you to read this post from start to finish. It will make you understand my absence and the reason why I changed my blog title. Thank you!
First and foremost, I would like to apologize for being inactive for the past few months. Blogging has to take a backseat in favor of my baby boy, Santi. I gave birth last December to a healthy baby boy and family comes first for me. I know those of you who still visit me here from time to time have noticed that only linked posts were posted and nothing else. I asked a very great cousin of mine to take care of everything for me while I am away. And ever the gracious one in the family, she said yes and never failed me.
I changed my blog’s tittle to Burst of Laughter. I also added a tagline that says… “And a new beginning. Letting go of the past, finally.” Let me explain why.
When I started this blog, I was grieving for a lost loved one. My husband of only three years died from a boating accident. He drowned when his ship capsized and I was left to take care of our then 2-year-old daughter, Anika. I was also pregnant with our little boy when it happened. You can just imagine the pain and anguish I felt when it happened. My beloved cousin suggested a month after we buried my husband that I start a journal. An online one to make it easier for me. It will be the therapy that I need, she said. I opened two blogs. One, a really personal one that chronicled my grieving. And this one to earn some extra income and meet new friends.
Last January, when little Santi held my hand while I was crying, missing his dad, I realized that I need to let go of the past already and move on with our lives. I now have two lives depending on me and it will not do good if I continue grieving. Matt will be happier where he was if he sees us moving on. And while I was digesting all these, I heard my daughter, Anika, laughing on something her uncle was telling her. I also heard my dad and my mom laughing with the two and I realized that life will be okay. My life, my kids’ lives.
I am finally letting go of the past. I will forever hold Matt dear in my heart. His kids will know what a good man he was.
Everything will fall into place. Slowly. Gradually.
And now I am back. I sure hope you are still there, ready to be friends with me still.
Happy weekend!
Surely there will be “bursts of crying”, too. Moving on doesn’t mean forgetting. God bless you, dear, as you constantly heal.
I am sorry for what had happened. I hope you’ll be able to take good care of your kids. God bless.
thank you for sharing your life with us. God is with you always!
PS- if you haven’t checked this site, aboutmyrecovery.com may offer some help about moving on =]
Hi Xixi,
Now I understand why I there was no update on your blog. And yes, you are still on my blogroll, in Mom Pop Son. You know me by the name daducha. I’ve been trying to contact you for the last few weeks because I changed that site to purely Celebrities topic and I have no idea if you still wish to be included there. You are still on the blogroll there, but maybe you would want to check out my other sites and tell me if you want to be in the links there.
My other sites:
http://www.momsturf.blogspot.com/
http://www.travelabodes.blogspot.com/
Thanks and welcome back.
Hi Xixi,
Me again, I just felt that I have to make a comment on what you just posted above.
Congratulations on your baby boy. I have one too, and be prepared to expand your heart because he will give you reasons to love him more and more each day. Your children will give you enough courage and strength to face life and to dream for a much better future.
Love your new blog name. And yes, there is so much to look forward to in the future.
A very touching story!! Yes your kids will bring out the best in you!! He will always be in your heart and never buried. He would want to see you moving on now, and not grieving, your moving in the right direction!!!
Bursts of Laughter—–good title!
This is actually my first visit to your blog. Just dropping of reciprocal entrecard. And was caught by your nice picture of patio. Then just decided to read your post. It really moved me. I am almost at a loss for words. I hope you can find the peace you are looking for and need in your children. God Bless you!
hi xixi! i am so glad you’re back, i missed yah
and now i understand why you haven’t been around, all i knew was you gave birth. hang in there sis, everything will be alright.
take care!
I am so sorry for your loss.
Wow – I’m so sorry for your loss. You are brave to be talking about this online and sharing your pain with your readers.
I new to your blog and I’m happy that I arrived at an opportune time. I will look forward to many “bursts of laughters” from you.
I just found your blog via Entrecard, and I am stunned by your story. I’m so sorry for your loss. Your attitude is amazing! Motherhood is a phenomenal thing, and it brings with it strength that many of us don’t even know exists. I admire yours already.
I was moved by your story. I can’t imagine myself going through what you went through, and I admire you for being so strong.
Thank you for reminding me not to take blessings and things, no matter how little, for granted.
I pray that you’ll continue being strong not only for your kids, but for yourself as well.
My deepest condolences to you. I hope that henceforth, you will find the peace that goes with letting go. God bless you and your two little angels. Those pets would just be the perfect friends for them at this time.
Very nice blog. I love the layout.
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I would like to start by telling you what a brave woman you are. But, I’m sure you already know this. You are a good mommy to put your children and their needs ahead of your own grief. To carry out the legacy of your late husband and raise these children to know what a wonderful man he was is very bold and my hat goes off to you, my friend and your journey that lies ahead. Being a mother is a wonderful gift. Bless you and those sweet little angels. I know your husband is looking down on you all with a big smile on his face!!!